Awakening

I am so pumped about MountainLake's new series called "Awakening". It's hard to describe all that is going on within me, but I feel like there is an awakening going on in my life. I am beginning to trust in a God that will never leave me nor forsake me. He is with me, moving me, moving around me, guiding me, protecting me. I am awakening to Him.

Awakening

Oh! Gravity.
by Switchfoot

Listen: [rm]
Lyrics:
Face down with the LA curbside ending
In ones and zeros.
Downtown was the perfect place to hide.
The first star that I saw last night was a headlight
of a man-made sky, but
Man-made never made our dreams collide.

(chorus)
Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth and the pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, We're awakening

Last week found me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And I don't know if I've ever felt so alive, alive

(chorus)

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating, I'm bleeding.
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I'm leaving
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating, I'm bleeding

(chorus)



Behind the Song:
'How quickly I am lulled back to sleep! How quickly I forget. In one of my favorite Wilco songs, Jeff Tweedy sings, 'You know I would die if I could come back new.' Perhaps to be truly reborn death is not optional. Here's a firsthand story about new life, it always starts at the bottom.' – Jon Foreman (Switchfoot)

Fuh-ri-Dey!

It's Friday!
I'm at Andrew's house. Sitting on the footrest using the newly installed internet, after moving a few things into my new room, playing with the dogs in the backyard of the the new house with the new fence. Nice...and then comes the rest of life. Money. Exams. Oil changes. Gas. Food. Ugh.
- Trent

I Can't Cop Out

So I survived yesterday. I didn't bomb the second exam I took. I think I actually aced it. However, the second part of the exam is a take-home essay. Eh. The question seems very horrific, but when you break it down, shmeezy peezey. I have been desperate lately, for many things really... God, Africa, Money, a Job, good grades. Mostly I have been desperate for just peace and comfort and stability. Being between jobs has not been easy. I am working at B&B Awards on the square in Cumming twice a week, but it won't cover the gas and new house payments that will be charged to me in Oct. and Nov. I have been putting more and more effort into finding a job the past two weeks with just no luck. I could just cop out, but I really don't want to, and really it would be disrespectful to myself, my family, and my friends. Why should I cop out? Really, I have it made. I am still alive and breathing, whereas every day it is a battle for my aunt to survive as the cancer has taken its last stand. And my friend, he is in emotional turmoil because his marriage is on the rocks and his wife is too selfish to see that she is just as much of the problem as he is. And what about what I experienced in Africa? They are happy with what they have, they are content and full of joy.
So why should I cop out? I am to the point where I am almost fully over myself, yet little things keep me from being...well, who God intends me to be. I really doon't be the crap out of myself anymore when I screw up because I know God loves me where I am at and when I begin to be more desperate for him, he fixes what I can't fix. I need to live for today, for God will provide.

1 John 3:3
Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure.

I take hope in this verse. And I'll be honest, I haven't fully digested what all it means yet, but just a glance over it gives me comfort. Don't worry, don't fret, don't anything...just trust and be desperate for growing closer to Him.

What a Flopper!

So I totally bombed my first History exam at North Georgia. And it was all my fault. I lost the study guide and that pretty much killed me. Really the only thing that will save mu butt is the map section of the quiz, I pretty much knew all the rivers, oceans, and countries due to my other history class. So next class I have another exam! I'll let you know how it went. :(

300

Can I just say how awesome 300 is??? Seriously one of the best movies I have ever ever seen. The emotion, the music, the cinematic, wow wow wow... I feel like a man every time I watch the movie. To rescue a whole nation, to rescue my wife, my queen from the tyranny of the Persians. WOW.

This Side

Life is awesome. Even when it don't feel like it, life is awesome. As Ben Kingsley's character says to his wife in the utterly depressing movie "House of Sand and Fog", "we are blessed." I am blessed no matter when and no matter what because I have an awesome God! And....because the weather is a-changing and fall is a-coming. :)

This song was on my mind:
"This Side"

One day you'll see her and you'll know what I mean.
Take her or leave her she will still be the same.
She'll not try to buy you with her time.
But nothing's the same, as you will see when she's gone.

It's foreign on this side,
And I'll not leave my home again.
There's no place to hide
And I'm nothing but scared.

You dream of colors that have never been made,
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
Only the curious have something to find.

It's foreign on this side,
And the truth is a bitter friend.
But reasons few have I to go back again.

Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.
Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.
There's no path to follow, once you're here.
You'll climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.

It's foreign on this side,
But it feels like I'm home again.
There's no place to hide
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared.
(there's no place to hide)
But I don't think I'm scared...

Peace at the Moment

So everything went great yesterday. And so far today is going very well. The Dawgs are winning at the moment. I slept great. It's quiet in the house. I really have no worries, just the hopes of hearing back about an application. Everything is okay in my world. God is good, and when the stress comes, and the sleeplessness attacks, God will still be good.
-Trent

Mid-Day Relief

Okay, so thus far everything is ok. I am about 92% sure I got a 95 on my Africa Geography quiz. The review for our Government exam on Mon. went great, and I think I will be prepared. So now all I have to do is my close reading. So I got on to see what people have posted, and quite frankly, this is totally different than I thought it would be. No 2 pages. No double spaced. Just type up two paragraphs of "how you feel" about a certain poem,and viola! A little disappointing, but a relief to my stress as well.
-Trent

Last Minute Man

Gah! Why do I tend to wait till the last minute to do things? I work great under stress levels, that is probably when I am able to focus the most. But there is so much going on,

1. Geography Map Quiz
2. Close Reading
3. Government Exam

The great thing is that I knew I had these coming up two weeks ago. Maybe it is because I have had so many other things come up since then...right?! Nope. I guess I am a procrastinator. Here's the thing, I will get each of them done, especially the last item, but I have compromised getting a good grade with the first two. As soon as I am done with my last class today I have 3 hrs and 45 min. to do the Close Reading assignment. Have I really started it? No. Have I done one before? No. Do I know how she will grade it? No, however she is a very complex teacher. So,in the end I've made a mess of my grades. Maybe it is just coming down to me. Yeah, me. Poor pitiful me.
(To Be Continued...) :)