Headaches and Stinky Breath

Today is much better than yesterday, although now I have a bad headache and I am procrastinating from doing Psychology and Rhetoric and Research. Not to mention I have an exam on Thurs. in Psych. and I am going home tomorrow night to speak to all the kids in the youth group. Arrrgh!

BUT! I had my interview with two leaders of BigStuf, Megan and the Blogger Guy (Sorry I can't remember your name). They said I'll find out by March 1st if I've made it (aARGH! That's forever and them some!). But the also let me in on a new neat project they are piloting this year. They are now going to start taking college students to Africa for 4-6 weeks! I've always wanted to go to Africa!

Psychology studying is going....well, it's going. Exam on Thurs.
My English paper is BLAH! It's due Mon.

Alot of stuff going on!

Trent

More Thoughts...

More thoughts from a wise amiga:

How is it that I can feel like a champion one day and a complete failure the next? Ah.....truth is I'm a complete failure most days, it's just days like today that I recognize it. I'm glad God loves flunkies. I'm so thankful that he uses filthy rags. I'm so glad He wins so that I don't have to.




Wow, eh?

Trent

Strangled!

Ahhh! Schoolwork and junk at home is strangling me to death!! I've been posting a lot on my other blog "Big Fish" (link to the left) and you'll see a little of the emotion I've been through. I'll be able to post alot more of what has been going on this weekend or sometime next week.

Trent

I Breathe the Mist Floating About the Stars

Within The Room Somewhere
i breathe the mist floating about the stars
i can caress with velvet hands
i breathe the mist
floating within without
this pen between my fingers

Messiah
i know you are there
within without me holding me
Messiah
i know you are there
catching carrying this beautiful mess

escape the pain
within a room somewhere
escape the pain
so deep inside the soul
i have no key
no map to find

I know, I know. I posted twice in a day, let alone a week! Gasp! It's also another song, from the same artist from the same album!! Just seems to relate to me.

Angeltread

crickets rhythmically sing
their mournful melodies
a monotone by request
but they fail they fail
to soothe the mess

hands rhythmically grope
the sheets again for you
and off rhythm the time slows
to make moments eternal
moments eternal

is this some kind of holy test
to stitch the treadmarks off my chest
to get up and walk outside my head
on a holy search for angeltread

now i've lost my fear
so i pray that you come near
with a million sparkly lights
and help me help me through the night

the milky prints of spirits near
i pray that they have lost their fear
a million wisps of sparkly light
weaving through the walls

Hmm...interesting, eh? Leigh Nash is amazing.
Trent

Letting go...

"Jesus Take the Wheel" By Carrie Underwood
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scaredShe threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheelTake it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

I am sure you've heard this song, but until this past weekend, I hadn't. The song relates to me as well as many of the people I know, and it's one of those that brings comfort to me on the road God has me on now.
I think I have a hard time giving up the wheel. I think that in some ways I already have, but I refuse to go where God is telling me to go. Ah, college life. :

Anyways, my youth pastor was infront of his wife as they were going somewhere on the road. A dog apparently appeared out of nowhere as my youth pastor's wife was on the phone with her father-in-law. As she goes to miss the dog (the details are not clear), she starts to spin. Her father-in-law hears her scream "Jesus, help!" as she lets go of the wheel. And so...Jesus did. She landed right in the right direction she was supposed to be going.
Kind of reminds you of Nicole C. Mullin's "When you call on Jesus, all things are possible".
Maybe i need to do that more often.
Trent

Thoughts

It takes a brave person to admit there is a God.
It takes an even braver person to still admit that there is a God when their world has been shattered.
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The thought just crossed my mind as God revealed this to me on my walk back to my room.

Day One, You Complete Me

Whew! I had four classes in a row today! Rhetoric and Reasearch, Health, New Testament Survey, Lunch, and then finally MATH *Cue the horror music*! All-in-all, my classes don't seem too bad. I had lit and math homework, which I will go into detail about in a few minutes. Anyways, we had more conversations outside our windows tonight. It was quite interesting. I look foward to many more. I was hanging out in a floor mate's room a few windows down and noticed they had the game "Prison Tycoon"....How many tycoons can you make?!! So, I plan on trying it after play some of Ski Resort Tycoon (HAHA!).
Back to reality, tonight they had an ice cream social (sounds feminine) in the second floor cluster, which was fun. After awhile of watching Juan taunt Patrick I headed back up to my room to work on more homework (already!!!). I actually had fun reading two literature pieces for R+R, they were "Ms. Brill" by Katherine Mansfield and "A Clean, Well-Lighted Place" by Ernest Hemingway. The whole structure and way they told the stories blew me away. So much so I am going to re-read them!! After that, I had MATH homework. Which took me an hour and a half to complete 3 sections and 13 problems!!!

Here's to tomorrow!
Trent

Books, Old Times, and Windows

So I slept wonderfully last night! You know those times when you wake up with a smile on your face and you feel like you're in heaven? Yeah, it was one of those mornings. After coming down from the clouds I went to lunch and then to purchase books for my classes. I ended up spending only $160 some odd dollars!! Much better than last semester! I was in and out in fifteen minutes.
I spent most of the day playing around because classes start bright and early (9:00 AM) tomorrow. Hey! It might not be early to you, but I have 4 fifty minute classes! Anyways, it feels good to be back. I went to small groups tonight, which only ended up being cancelled due to two people not being able to make it, but we spent an hour and a half talking about what-not and iPods.
So now I leave you with the thought of what just happened to me. About 6 of us guys had a conversation out of our windows. Five of us on our floor and one of the guys on the floor above. We tried to get more, but they didn't come to the window. Mike, two windows to the right, hooked up a hanger to a pool stick to reach the other windows. I cannot seem to find my camera right now, so no pictures. :( So hopefully Mom, you are looking for them. ;) What would I do without you?
-Trent

This letter was sent out to all churches who are going to BigStuf this summer. This is the camp that I am wanting to intern at. I thought if I got accepted I would only be doing 11 camps of 12,000 students, but he says so far that 16,000 have signed up!!! WOW! I am so excited about possibility of being able to intern a whole summer in Panama City and also it seems I would go on a mission trip to Africa. So here is what Lanny said:

Hi Campers!
Normally i want to start these blogs or letters and do the
humor, tongue in cheek, sarcastic, lots-of-adjectives, excitement thing. That
last sentence is all your getting this time. God is on the move. Life is short.
We have a mission. Unbelievably, we already have over 16000 people registered
for camp...we want you there....sign up now.God has some incredible things in
store for our interns this summer. We need your sharpest college students to
sign up and do it now. God is moving us into a missions mindset more than ever,
I am headed to Africa in March and again in May. I think we are to play a major
part in making a major difference in thousands of lives in that continent. I
think we are supposed to be making a major impact on lives of college students
who want to go there. Let the ones in your church know. We are sensing urgent
messages to be delivered to students at camp....we need your prayers as we put
the program together. I just got back from Passion 06. Watching 17000 college
students worship and engage as they did was incredible. God is doing some
incredible stuff. Let's all make sure we are in the middle of doing all he
wants us to do to make the most of the days.As John Wesley once said..."Do all
the good you can. By all the means you can.In all the ways you can.In all the
places you can.At all the times you can.To all the people you can. As long as
ever you can."
We are wanting to put a blog up where you can be one of our
prayer partners and voice your prayers for us as we do for you for all the days
now before camp. Be looking for that on our site. Then if you feel like you
should....become one of our every day prayer partners. Actually you can do that
before we ever get anything up on our site.

Thanks
Lanny

More Advice from Mi Amiga

Here's another good quote by a friend of mine:

I am a pretty good giver of advice-I wish I'd take my
own.

A New Year

Well, it's been quite awhile since I last had an update. And the lack of updates is good for me in that college has kept me busy, and bad for you in that you have no clue what is going on with me. I am going back to Lee tomorrrow and will start classes this Wed. I am taking psychology, New Testament, Cont. Math, Health, and Intro to Christian Ethics. I have a tight schedule, but hopefully I will quickly adjust. I will update more as the days progress.
-Trent